What It Wasn'T
It wasn’t because You didn’t have a car
It wasn’t because you weren’t a star
It wasn’t because you wasn’t a king but you were a Lion in my heart
Food for thought It was ya smile Ya walk
It was that scent (u left) when you had already went
But left ya presence behind
Wasn’t that you didn’t have but a dime and some nickels in not only the bank
It wasn’t even the fact that somedays ya breath stank
It wasn’t about the fact that at times I hated to love you
It wasn’t the night I found out you were able to lie
It wasn’t the time I noticed your wondering eyes
It was the fact that you could be honest
It was the reason you wanted things to be closest to perfect
Don’t got nothing to do with the text messages I went through
Couldn’t have been the times you didn’t do what I wanted you to do
However you did things I couldn’t ever do
Spoke ya mind, Touched my spine, You aint the one
Not Yet You need time to collect
Again it wasn’t ya hairline that made me say yes
Wasn’t even the wedding dress
That still hangs untainted in my closet
Ain’t the days that pass that I don’t hear ya voice
Some things I would change if I had a choice
You know what
It wasn’t even strawberries that disappear like the words I love you to places they should
never go to
Damn it wasn’t even the sleepless nights
When we was doing wrong knowing it wasn’t right
It is the fact that you taught me that I have a choice
It was the opinions made prominent by your voice
It’s not the fact that you had to find ya way without a shadow
I can’t even say that
I think I’d give anything to stand in the darkness talking more than a half a decade ago
Before we learned what bills were and diamond rings
Before I forgot that I am a dream come true
But not right now to you
It’s not that you go out with your boys and still play with toys
It’s the commitment that you omit to realize is YOUR recited “Joy”
This lady ain’t as pretty as you think
I do some ugly things
I’m writing this like my “shiit” don’t stink
I don’t like pink
Can’t speak my mind out side of ink
Can’t stop over whelming you with every bit of me
Can’t stop letting you deposit in the pit of me
Can’t stop being ya checklist
Don’t want to not be there when you witness the birth of ya kid
No I didn’t fall for that “first kiss”
You was playing me too
And I’m a fool cause I let you
Yeah I was dumb to play stupid
I know more than you think I did
Wasn’t that the whole point of being a part of ya life?
My only question is why did you ask Me to be ya wife?
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