Tired
I’m tired of trying to be strong
But am afraid of being weak
I hate the silence around me
But no one company I seek
Standing here alone
Staring out the window
Wondering what happen to my life
Where did my happiness go?
Yesterday I was just living
Then love came into my life
But love just stab me in the back
With an old rusty knife
And it hurt so much
I didn’t want to live any more
So by the time this poem is read
I will be waiting at hells door
I know she won’t cry for me
Not for my worthless soul
In fact I want her to be happy
As they cover me in the hole
She says how much she loves me
But still she didn’t end my suffering
She let society close her heart
And left me in unimaginable pain
I wish that family and friends
Understand why I leave them behind
Thought I know they will be angry
But I hope they forgive me in time
I know that my actions
Will cause them a lot of distress
But I’m just so tired of hurting
I just want to lay my head and rest
So please don’t cry over me
Save it for someone who can hear
Your tears will mean nothing
For I will no longer be there
I have no complains about life
I just miss her so
And it’s hard to make it thru, today
And am afraid to face tomorrow
How long can I hide in my smile
While my blood slowly flows
From the invisible wounds I bare
That only she know
How do I live without her?
Her touch, smile, fragrance of her hair
Her eyes, her chin, I rather die
Than to live if she’s not there
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