Marriage Dwindled
We have been up, down, sideways and phased
displaced by lonely nights aimed to raise
shunning suns of spun solitary pains.
Numerous strains of darkness dispensed from
fights ceaselessly warn my stuporous heart
that wrongs now death drag the good our love had.
Whenever the quiet is still
and I’m alone with silence,
I ache for an easing of our pain,
seek release of our twin aches
and pray a deep heart speak begins
to end our souls’ toils in foils opaque.
Whenever life is in motion
and time moves thru feels stolen,
I feel like a mockery as your wife,
as an anomaly to your true self
and my spirit sits with matrimony
fears and loneliness rife striped with limits.
I am good enough to live harmoniously as me
but I am an awkward bluff in this union of us.
I wish to no longer cry into tear damp pillows
while gaps clamp me to our shared bed’s edge.
Let our hearts stretch towards our once best middle
to find bye's that spare love further death dwindle.
... CayCay
August 24, 2019
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