Love Poem: It's Not His Fault
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Written by: Billy Thekidster

It's Not His Fault

It's not his fault for so many things
except perhaps for the happiness he brings
into our lives day after day,
but it's not his fault things turned out this way.

It's not his fault that the voices we can't hear
will continue to haunt him year after year,
nor is he to blame for the simple things he forgot
or his inability to distinguish what's real and what's not.
It's not his fault for so many things.
It's not his fault this sad song he sings.

"I'm a victim of a demon. A merciless foe.
It attacks not only me but those who love me also.
Schizophrenia is the name that this demon goes by.
Some call it mental illness. I call it, "IT that won't die."
This demon, Schizophrenia, hereinafter known as IT.
IT possessed me and once IT did there was no escaping IT.
This demon has many minions which it dispenses upon us.
Upon me and upon you whom I love, whom I trust.
These minions have names like Depression and Rage,
Frustration, Aggravation, Trapped In A Cage,
Confusion, Self Blame, Anger, Sorrow and Guilt.
Their battle cry:
SERVE THE DEMON! MAKE THE LOVED ONES ALL WILT.
FATIGUE ALL WHO LOVE HIM TILL THEY ALL JUST CAN'T COPE!
CONVINCE ALL WHO LOVE HIM TO ABANDON ALL HOPE!
THE ONE THEY ALL LOVE WILL BE NEVER AGAIN!
CONVINCE ALL WHO LOVE HIM THAT THIS IS HIS END!

IT hopes that IT's minions will distract you for awhile
so that alone IT can torment my nightmare more vile.
Without you, you who love me I don't stand a chance.
Without you, you who love me IT will continue IT's dance
of evil on my already forsaken weak mind
while IT's minions keep chanting hoping you'll leave me behind.
It wants IT's prey to be totally IT's own
but to do this IT must make me feel totally alone.
You see, I must feel that all those loved have abandoned,
that I've no one, no friend, not a single companion
who gives a rat's butt about my existence in hell
until ultimately I surrender to the demon full will.

My only Hope is simply The Power Of Love.
A power more powerful than what IT is made of.
Only love can save the one for whom you so lovingly feel.
Love keeps the demon at bay so I can strengthen and heal.
So when this demon, not me, launches another assault
Please Love Me and remember that
It's just not my fault"

It's not his fault that he was born such a beautiful child.
His only guilt being that of simply making me smile
from all of the joy that he's brought into my heart.
It's not his fault how much I miss him when IT drives us apart.
It's not his fault for so many things.
Simply put,
If Not For Love, Schizophrenia wins.