Inquisitive
Inquisitive
On this at at this time I feel what is missing
It rarely shows itself but does now
Why I don’t know?
The very rare feeling missing is this
That I have no family of my own
No blood lines to continue my lineage
My parents are dead and I’ve no siblings
Nor do I have and children of my own
Not in that very specific regard
This last stings and causes me
The melody that visited me now
And in the hours as I lay dozing
Wondering how it would be
If my life was normal in that ways
With a nice gal the same as me
Who saw the world thru similar eyes
Gave me 6 kids who are my own kind
Or even different that’s fine
As half of my blood is in their veins
But none of that ever happened
Nor ever will not in this life
Except in my dreams since the 1980s
I never did get it right with gals
Or family matters so it’s a What if?
Just like my mythical Royal Air Force career
If I could turn the clock back I would
But that’s not possible except in dreams
It’s fine for I accept my life actions and myself
I exist in the Kingdom of Nick and I did good
In all areas in life except the missing one
I shed no tears for my alternate history
MAJOR INSOMNIA
CORPORAL SLEEP
Nick Armbrister and other writers
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