Inged
Ing/ed
He was:
timed
lying down
waiting
braving it, the pain, invincible
grimacing
sweating
hedging-his bets
not panicking-yet
pacing
gasping
falling
still
breathless
void
stopped
still
heavy
rock
board
immoveable
stared at
no power
darkness
panic
screaming
doors open
battery - dead
agog
chaos
not alive
taken
transported
sirens
trolley dash
assessed intubated injected
prodded
pulse
adrenalin- more and more
faint heart:beats
monitors
sounds and uniforms, drinks and heat on the corridor
anticipation, but we all know it.
However, where there’s life there’s hope- right?
more waiting pensive heartfelt and pained glances exchanged
more waiting
pumped
injected
monitored
looked at
sung to
shouted at
Blood Oxygen Levels Decrease when taken off breathing machine which, has kindly been breathing for him
feet felt-massaged
prayed to-our little prince Shazad
no movement,
pale
cold
still
eyes slightly ajar
grim future without him- no I can’t; I won’t imagine
unendurable.
More time docs try..
okay- it’s 6.50am Xmas Eve 2014
‘He’s poorly now’..... says the nurse.
Blood oxygen dropping fast... sats going down, down down
sustained only by adrenalin anyway: He went 10.30 pm on 23/12/2104
in the house,
in the hallway.
He’s gone officially - taken.
Rest in peace, my little brother with mum and dad ok!
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