Im So Sorry
im sorry i never told you that i was a intimidated by you
the way you talked and walked and acted so strong
when i ran away you were left alone to deal with the ramifications of my life
you were just a little girl and i abanded you
we were best of friends as well as sisters but i left you all alone
you found out you had cancer and it tore you apart
a 13 year old young girl forced to face the world alone
im sorry i was a coward and lied to you about my life
the things i did were embarressing and i was out of my mind
i couldn't hold your hand or wipe away your tears
i wasn't there to comfort you or tell you it's all right
i never lied about loving you that was always true
inside my head i was dead and didn't want to destroy you
your best friend died and you were a wreck
again i wasn't there but never did a day go by that i didn't care
you had two children through the years and this aunt wasnt's around
they grew up not knowing that your sister loved them so
you struggle with pain on an everyday basis and im three thousand miles away
i ruined our relationship once again when i told you i was gay
the drugs destroyed my inner being to the point of no return
i did the worst and hurt the best but never no more than i betrayed you
im so sorry little sister that words are not enough
id trade my life today to take all my ugliness away
behind these eyes lies a remorseful soul longing to love you and make this whole
i try to reach out and talk to you but you never answer my call
i guess this is all my fault for hurting you long ago
in time thats your time ill be waiting here to see your face and hear your voice
saying that you still care
i love you sister!!!
(FOR THE CHRISTIE AND SHARON "I'M SORRY"CONTEST)
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