Im Ready To Be Angry Now
For to long I left the feeling deep inside.
Anger a feeling I had to hide.
I should be used to it I should not care.
Anger for the dead, we mustn't dare.
So I thought I would write a poem because it's what I do.
The anger inside my heart is because of you.
Questions surrounded me growing up without you there.
Then you commit suicide as if you didn't care.
Dear father though I love you and I always will.
Its time I tell you exactly how you made me feel.
Life without my father drove me to want to die.
Many nights I thought "wasn't I good enough" if not then why?!
Why did you create me only to walk away?
If you didn't love her then why did I have to pay?
I paid a price, far to much for a child, to endure.
Why did you come back only to walk out a different door.
I love you without conditions and now I understand.
I never was meant to hold my daddy's hand.
Abandoned and left to cry alone.
Now I know, with mom I had a home.
You hurt me more than others along the way.
So today I call you to hear what I have to say.
Because of you I want to die today!!!
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