I Loved Too Deeply
I once told myself I was incapable of love,
Because I could not love myself.
That was until I met you.
For months my diet consisted of not eating more than 300 calories,
Hours of exercise, even if I felt like I couldn't go on anymore,
There were the daily purges after all of that.
I skipped lunch every day just to see you walk the halls.
I fed into my delusions that you wanted me,
I dreamt of you every night,
Pretended my pillow was you,
I felt like I've known you all my life.
I was in love with you for three years,
So in love that I risked my life, just for a chance that you would love me back,
And even after all I went through just for you to look me,
You never even knew.
Now you're happy with someone else,
And I'm just here, bruised and broken.
I don't know if I'll ever be in love with someone else again.
But maybe I can start by loving myself.
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