Give
I look at the pictures of us laughing and smiling.
it seems so long ago we were happy and in love.
in love in each others arms.
yet those days have past, and i ask myself why do i give.
why am i still fighting for something that hurts me.
why am i still fighting for something that brings me more pain than joy.
I truly cant think it through.
how can she not want to give all of herself for us.
is it too hard to acknowledge that you wont remember your grade in psych 5 years from now?
i give and i give but i am wearing thin.
to thin to hide my true feelings, to thin to cover the facade that kept us together for far too long.
if i had my way i would numb myself to the pain you cause me and numb myself to the anguish
that is inevitable.
how do i ready myself for the end of something that has been a part of my life for so long.
who do i turn to when i neglected everyone else for you, and you let me down?
so i continue to give but i feel i have nothing left but sorrow.
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