Your Heart
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart) - ee cummings
years I could not see you
but I never forgot
and told no one
that I carried your heart in my heart
how I loved you from that first moment
torture
that we could not be together
until many heartaches later
raising small children
I dreamed of you staring out the window at the snow
once
twice
you called and I was blessed
with the gift of your voice
but I wanted you
I was selfish
and trapped within my own prisons making
yet I had that picture
hidden
and you
married so long also trapped
between mental illness and guilt
I had to leave
baby was coming
I know I broke you
never one for patience but always prayer
I had to ask god
is this all there is?
god you know
who I love who I need guide me show me
he is my love
unexplainable things began to move
second chances
became reality
I still carry your heart in my heart
as I carried your children
under my heart
as I hold your soul in my soul
and you in my arms.
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