Wonder
I wonder what it would feel like to have a real dad?
Then I look and see my brothers and grandpa and know I’m better off.
I wonder what it would feel like to have a true friend?
Then I turn to my left and right and say I love my dipset family.
I wonder about a lot of things.
But I don’t wonder about who or where I stand.
I wonder how it would feel to be in true love?
Then I get a kiss on my forehead and realize I already know.
I wonder when I will be a mother?
So I flash back and realize I been raising kids all along.
I can wonder about a lot of things I want in life.
But what I don’t want is to replace who I am.
I wonder what it would be like to have a normal family?
While I pull them apart, I understand I love them for who they are.
I wonder what it would be like if I wasn’t so determined?
I step in front of the mirror and smile, and say “you’ll never know”.
The things I wonder could stop you in your tracks and cause change.
But im glad that through all the thoughts im still me.
I wonder why I care so much?
As I turn around, I see the eyes of those who care back.
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