Love Poem: Who Am I
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Written by: John Jacks

Who Am I

What do I look like to you?
How many times have you seen me?
Yet you haven't seen it yet?

Don't you see the monster I truly am?
Often I wish to release you...

You are worth so much more than this...
Open your heart? Open your mind.
Understand that you deserve control

Think about how I sound to you
Read between the lines 
Underneath my parasol everything stands
Softly, I speak to comfort you:
Take my word as law, and be happy

Master of mind heart and soul 
Everything I need, I want, I take

So much control, so why can't I do it?
Offer an answer, an explanation as to why

Maybe...I'm not in control of this 
Us?
Can't you see I'm under a terrible spell?
Help me...
?

As you listen...tell me how I feel to you
Restore my faith in myself and in love
Everything and anything I have lies here
Nothing you can do will change the truth
Tell me what it all means...

Teach me how to keep this feeling 
Help the pain go away
I surrender to you, you are in control
Never in my life had anyone owned me
Grab my hand, take me somewhere new
Show me how you do it...

Save my life once more
Take away my strongest advantage
I have never been so exhilarated
Let me experience a joy only you can give
Let me forget my future

Give me nothing except for what you do
Open my mind to a new ambiguity 
I don't want to know what happens next
No future in which I know the answer
God himself will be lost in a new world

Make me understand what its like 
You can't...

Where can I go to find peace from this?
After all, nothing that isn't destined fails
You have complete control
?

04/19/2018