Whispers of My Heart
'Love at first sight' ain't a truth for me
Hearts like mine are too robust to melt that quickly
Yet, more as I saw him
My childlike heart took a dip
In his ocean-like eyes in which I wanted to be the ship
Seeing him speak was a treat to my senses
Making me blind to other people's successes
As I mentally prepared speeches in his defenses.
Was this some infatuation?
Or some depthless attraction?
Who knew that this would prolong for about a decade,
Either to let it unwishfully fade
Or simply surrender it to fate
His greetings and gestures had enslaved me
Insofar there awaited bated breaths anticipating in glee
But just like there is both heaven and hell in this universe
Some were days when that joy was in dearth.
There were times when our eyes rolled in words
'Too bad if love has to speak through words' is something I had then learnt
A momentary smile was worth thousand pounds of gold
Those are memories, distant and lost, sweet and old.
However as time had it, we drifted apart
By winds of academics and destiny's art.
I submerged in my work world and so did he,
Still reminiscing the sweet old days full of glee
But my elderly maturity kept me back forever
My brain's logic at constant conflict with my heart's endeavor.
Leave the eyes, even the mouth now didn't serve us right
So it was better to stay silent than create a fight
Years passed by but my feelings didn't come around
The smile which connected us gave way to a hopeful frown
Was it our adult egoism?
Or a repercussion of our lack of communication?
We are still attached by virtue of our past
Ties of such cathexis cannot be broked so fast.
We never met each other's eyes again
But managed to steal of glimpse of the other behind the eye's veil
This thick wall built in between is worth a thousand fractures' pain
We both had our professional commitments
Which we loved dear to our heart
Perhaps that was the only companion
That enabled us to live our lives apart
I have grown out of that shell now
Perhaps still trying
My heart has just caged his memories
So there is no use clarifying
We are miles away from each other
Though that doesn't make our memories fainter
Deep down, I want his life to be full of joy
With some space for me still in his heart
This is indeed an unfinished story
Which I want to stay passive yet steadfast
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