Where Do the Flowers Go In Winter Part Three
(continued from Where do the Flowers go in Winter Part Two)
All your father wanted was a son
And I gave him a son
Big strong boy-he was
But he died
And we had you to replace him
You
you"
Damn her Soul!
Damn her Soul!
A child
Mommy I was but a child
Defenseless
Against her
Why did she hate me?
Why did my mother hate me?
She wouldn't give me a chance
Never did she hold me
Never did she kiss me
Never did she weep for me
"Seek Jesus!"
She told me when I was ten
She became very religious
Whenever she wasn't at church
She took time off to go to work
Her family was nonexistence to her
Saving souls for Jesus
Saving souls for Jesus
"...it's okay to show emotions son
Even I shed a few tears for her"
I got up from the chair
I hugged my father
"Thanks Dad"
Weeks went by
I am at her grave
The tombstone
"A woman who loved everyone
And who was loved by everyone"
She did not love me
And I did not love her
The snow is gone now
It has yielded to grass of green
Birds sing in trees against skies of blue
Flowers, O yes
My mother and I loved flowers
Flowers all kinds of flowers
She favored roses
But I like irises
All my three sisters
Even my dead brother
They were born in Spring and Summer months
She called them her little blossoms
I was born the same month as she
In Winter
In January
No flowers, no birds to sing
Just snow, ice winds, cold
Numbness
"Mother!"
Where do the flowers go in winter?
Why can't they bring you love then?
I feel to my knees
Against her tombstone
And I begin to weep
First one tear from the right eye
Suddenly two from the left eye
Violently
I cried
And cried
And cried
For no matter
No matter
That eternal spark of joy
Burst into a flame of infinite sorrow
I knew That Yes I loved her
I loved my mother.
(the end)
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