Love Poem: When Love Is Gone
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Written by: Litan Dey

When Love Is Gone

Turn all the lights off
I will sink into my sad, dark room
I do not want to see memories shared with you in this room
in every corner of my room, I can still scent you
I can not tell someone of my wounds
the cuts in my heart are too deep
nobody knows how fragile I am today
I know that time will melt away your memories
your scent won't always linger here
but I can not help
I simply don't know what to do
I sleep with hallucinations every night
jump out of bed at the midnight to receive your call
to send you a good night wishes before you fall sleep
it pumps up my numb heart. 
ah! this was another sad dream

I am still stealthy
it is the same with or without lights
turn on the lights
I look at our old pictures, all turning out to be fresh again
but our smile does not seem to make sense anymore 
I try to go out with friends
there, too, I can not take selfies
my smiles look so fake and dim
my heart crying out of the thinking that you are not with me
no one to wish a good night before bed
today is the first day of ‘2021’
No one says thanks for being with me another year 
and hope to spend numbers of years together
it is difficult to cope up with the long-distance
the distance between our hearts is hundreds of miles now
even though we live in the same city

I really can not help thinking about you
I feel like a lost kid in the biggest night market of Taiwan
and waiting for my family to find me
when I see someone in love wallowing
hold hands on the street
or share a romantic moment
that's when my heart is smarting as if someone shoots a bullet in my heart
my heart is like a dying flower under the strong sunlight
no one is in there to water the flower
my mind is like a fish enclosed in a hotpot
soon the fish will die from the heat and free all her worries
that's how I feel when I miss you
this suffering is unbearable, but I can only share this pain with myself

nothing is exciting these days
I could barely close my eyes
I suck up my tears every night
I pretend that I don't care for you
and I know that I was deceiving myself
I weep in my sleep
yet I do not need a sympathy
I am trying to heal my shattered heart
I think my smile is going to make sense again
then I can take a lot of cute selfies
I believe the flower will blossom again with its scent
The fish will leap out of the hotpot and go back to the lake
My heart is going to recover and flourish like the flower and fish