Love Poem: When
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Written by: Patricia Groshong

When

April 26, 2018 Thursday 9:10 am  A COMING APART OR A COMING TOGETHER


	WHEN WILL I HAVE YOU?	

	I ask
	oh, anything to get you to focus on us
	Think about 
	Talk about us
	but, the bait isn’t taken
	You must forget how much this love seeks 
	to validate
	to commeserate
	to be
	When will you be all mine? I whimpered, I wondered, I asked, I begged
	Oh Love you stupid creature of myth
	Why did you come to my doorstep in such a hideous way?
 	Full of lack
	Full of insinuation
	Full of stark days full of unrequited everything
	The touch of you, the long drawn out harm derived
	if it isn’t going to last
	like forever promised
	Full of holes is this love
	nasty implications
	this whores nest
	a flipped over contamination of heart
	two that want but won’t be
	won’t be what’s wanted
	you sit in holy non matrimonious bliss
	as I wait in sanctimonious kiss
	what kind of love is this
	this blessed event soured in tentured history
	you and your best flaunted
	by me in daily horror
	while I guess 
	is it fool or not
	to keep you
	when you show up
	even daily is the promise
	and you do
	still I suffer the wages
	paid to keep us apart
	it wasn’t my idea
	to have it like this
	i put up with it
	because like I said before
	love is stupid
	shot full of holes
	blinding
	binding
	habitual
	pissy
	I’d like a hiatus
	from this
	though I’d miss
	the interaction
	in my mind
	an intelligence dwells
	the heart doesn’t partake though
	it too, idiots up
	at this rate
	even if it comes
	I may not take it
	May forget the whole escapade
	go my own way
	without
	without hoping it will turn out
	I may let doubt override
	I loved being a whole, one together
	With you, I’m neither
	barely a quarter, if that
	so how come we’re still haggling over the details
	why still together
	got me
	that’s all I know
	is you still do
	have me
	When will I have you?