Love Poem: What Now
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Written by: Michelle Bailey

What Now

The leaves turn brown and the cold sets in
As darkness falls, my joy grows dim
I'm unsure of the problem and why it arose
Why have you just appeared-suppose only God knows
It was never a problem- and I managed okay
But all of a sudden that changed one day
I rack my brain in hope of a clue
But why when I walk past you, I feel the way I do
I'm embarrassed to say and I'm ashamed to admit
But the option is not there for me to dismiss it
Do I explore, or do I hope and pray it will go away
Do I have the confidence to speak the words I want to say
The confusion I have sends my head spinning round
The echoing voice in my head makes a sound
I'm confused, I'm scared, I'm at my wits end
I so desperately want this situation to end
If I keep hiding will anyone seek me
If I keep running will it set me free
If I keep seeking will I ever find
The life I crave which runs through my mind