What Happened
What happened to the person I use to be?
I seem to have misplaced her, where could she be.
I only see the outer shell where I use to dwell.
I don't recognize the person I see looking back at me.
The person I see is distant, lonely, unhappy and mad.
Nothing like the person I use to be, and that's sad.
As secure as I use to be I let my heart influence me.
The relationship I am in now I really wanted to work,
But it looks like he may end up being a jerk.
When I am away from him and feeling hurt,
My head and mouth do most of the work.
But when I see him look at me, I forget what I said would be,
And then only want him close to me.
He gets what he needs from me, then turns into the one I hate to see.
This roller coaster ride of emotions has taken a toll on me,
My heart is damaged and my self esteem is on empty.
Manipulation is the word I use to describe what he dose,
To get me to do what he wants me to.
And then when he is through, I always end up feeling used.
In retrospect I can see how I lost most of my self respect.
I must get out of this rut if I don't no telling where I will end up.
I have to leave this life behind or I might lose my mind.
Then maybe I will find out what happened to that person I use to be.
And finally see he was the problem not me.
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