Vanquished
Fighting halos & absurd romantic logos
Trying to rid myself of this feeling
This feeling of surrender
Trying to rid myself of this needing
This needing to surrender
Afraid of what I might become
If I come undone
Fearing I've already pushed my love away
Knowing he & I were meant to be
Crying hopeful tears of regret
Sighing breathless words into the wind
Thinking back to what used to be
The feeling of ineptitude soon creeps in
Unsure of myself
Uncertain about what lies within
Pacing back & forth
Lingering in thoughts undone
Thinking, always thinking...
About the man who unknowingly stole my spark
Who I pushed away
Preferring to live in self-pity
Keeping vigil in the dark.
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