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You made me feel safe, and for the first time I was happy. Overflowing with joy your heart fought for mine when there were demons I could no longer destroy. You were able to save me even though you too were just another little boy.
You made me see, for the first time there was light. I had a future and you were in it, it was so bright. But the things I wanted the things I needed, they were too far out of sight.
You made me wonder when I no longer saw adventure in this life. You made me wonder even when all my pleasure turned to strife.
Your smile made me warm, the heat in my stomach was enough to keep at bay any of my crooked thoughts trying to reform. Your smile made me able to stand up to any threatening storm. With you I felt unashamed of anything in me that wasn't uniform.
but.
"no one can know"
"were just having fun"
"how could I love you"
your words made me run.
For the 100th time, I ran. You made me feel things I've always wanted to feel. You made me see things that I never knew I wanted to see. You made me wonder and oh, I wish I could still wonder. You made me love someone I didn't know I was capable of loving
and you made me run from the only thing I have ever been able to explain.
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