Love Poem: Until Now
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Written by: Joy Bohland

Until Now

You've got yourself a past
now don't you boy?
A list of loves that didn't last,
a lonely future you couldn't avoid.
Until now.

All I've known is loss.
I'm braced for the life of the lonely.
I'm dying in a world where everyone is boss
except for me.
Until now.

Your touch drives me crazy,
you don't try to own me,
you make me free.

Gonna love you down
with an embrace wider than this town.
I'm not gonna hold you down.
We've been held down and owned.
Until now.

I'm not trying to own you.
I want to...love you.
I want you to be mine, yes
but I want you to own yourself.

Your kiss sets me free
and you let my own hand hold my own key.
My love is all yours
because my heart chose
and I know...
when the future is here,
you'll be in it.
I'll drink your tears
and you'll know my secrets.
We'll heal each other of our pasts
we'll laugh about them when we can.

You've hurt
and I've cried,
felt like dirt
and tied
up up up.

Felt choiceless,
dumbed down
and voiceless
and grounded 
down down down.
Until now.