Love Poem: Undoubted Deception

Undoubted Deception

Now my doubts are clear
The thing i fear have arrived
Though my sadness is contented in a silent tear
I just wonder how i might survive

Now that my heart feels pain
And mixed emotions i tried to contain
The solution to this seems so faint
What should i do when i meet split lanes?

I am afraid to make any decisions
Nor would i want to believe my perception
Am i going to face any deception?
That is my heart frequent question

I, suddenly feel so small
Hiding myself under my veil
I ignore my heart frequent calls 
I get love to no avail

I want to give him a chance
But it seems that it will lead to deception
He won't realize it until everything is done
He won't realize that this girl is one in a million

Let it be what it has to be
Though i know my heart needs to be free
I am hurt by the future i am supposed to see
I regretted ignoring my heart recent pleas....