Unanswered
Why can’t I do anything right?
Why do I always screw up everybody’s life?
Why is it so hard for me
to shut my mouth
and just let it be?
All I do is hurt people.
I can never make anyone happy.
I try my best—
but the harder I try,
the worse it gets.
Why can’t I get anything right?
Why do I make myself cry every night?
Why can’t I just be okay?
I want to know
why I’m so sad.
I want to understand
why happiness never stays.
I want to stop judging the people I love
and be grateful they still let me in.
I want to close my eyes
and see his face—
the one that makes me smile,
the one who says,
"Never will I leave you. Never."
But I’m scared to trust him.
He says one thing.
They say another.
Why can’t he tell me?
Why won’t he tell me?
Is he cheating?
I want to know.
I need to know.
Does he really love me?
Is that why we can’t get back
to how things were?
I want to trust him—
but I can’t.
Not after everything
he’s put me through.
God...
I want to cry.
I don’t know what to do.
I don’t want to live this lie anymore.
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