Typical Man
I've been a typical man, pushed away the girl I cared about most
Here I am, desperately trying to repair what's broke
But it's never going to happen
I just hope other guys will learn from my mistakes and not follow my actions
You came into my life when I was extremely low
My nightmares were apparent So I couldn't put my dreams on show
Wanted to pull you close, but instead you got pushed away
Wishing I could go back, I have so much to say
Chantal, Yeah I'll put your name here
This is a picture I really want to paint clear
My mother never showed me any affection so I found it hard to trust females
You only know half the story, but I want you to have the full details
Depression had me so tight, when we first started speaking
I couldn't admit to you that my heart wad bleeding
Butterflies in my stomachs, when we spoke, but I couldn't handle it
I was scared, when in reality I wanted you in my arms with candles lit
Never felt this way about a girl before
Never had my world secure
So used to people giving up on me, that for once I wanted to be the winner
But I've realised its not a game, and now every day has been the coldest winter
We've spoke quite a bit since but now you've cut me off
I know now this isn't just a loss
It's the biggest loss I'm ever likely to have
I never knew love could make someone feel this sad
I hate the fact I realized I love you when its too late
This is my whole heart, its more than words on a page
I'm making myself numb, so nothing or no one can hurt me now
I hope and believe one day we will work it out
Not today or tomorrow, but one day i hope we can start again
I promise I'll never hurt your heart again
Everyday I wake with the regret knowing I messed this up
But I hope that one day again I'll get your love
I've been a typical man, pushed away the girl I cared about most
Now you're gone and my heart is broke
You're not coming back and that's something I know damn well
I'm sincerely sorry and do truly love you Chantal
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