Tumu
I have travelled miles and miles, from cities to cities. In each town I try to find something like you, for a while I did, however it lacked your smile, that annoying laugh you make when you are happy, the look you give me when I get mad at you . I definitely found something; I found myself, I learnt to love myself , don't get me wrong, I always had myself, and you loved me to the moon and back and everyday you showed me that through your actions, I just needed to see myself from my own eyes, rather than through yours, I just needed to know I could make it on my own and that you was there by choice. For a while It felt good, I felt content and I didn't think I needed you. I found my thoughts, my heart didn't skip beats as often as it did and my mind was clear, I could think and I didn't think I needed you. I wasn't that little school girl who would run to you or stand behind the door just to scare you with a BOO then hug you when you got scared or pass out laughing on the floor, which ever one came first. I wasn't that girl that looked to you to lead the way, that girl that always throw shade at your big head. I wasn't that girl you taught countless hours how to drive and ways to trick myself into studying to get them good marks. I travel through countries looking for something to restore my strength to build myself but I forgot that I left you behind.
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