Trying Times
I really don't have an answer
looking at it for what it is
his behavior is a problem
and I just wanna solve it
the logical thing that comes to mind is to discipline him physically
but will that really resolve it
I gotta find a way to deal with the constant feeling
of him not being able to properly communicate
I kinda blame his mother because she dealt him this damage
so in my heart I gotta confess there's still a little hate
or was it just fate, it's too late for the what ifs and
should've, could've, would've's
I love him unconditionally
so what he's going threw I feel too in my left bosom
No time to be weak, passive, or complacent
this here is the testing of my faith
so I must remain patient
What I'm chasing seems to be
for my first born to get better and be normal
contemplating medication
but everything will work out in due time
done in accordance like it's formal
these are trying times so I guess I really gotta try harder
even if everything and everyone around me is folding
I must remain stronger
Dedicated to my son
my firstborn diagnosed with ASD
we will get threw this together
whatever it takes
I love you
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