Tortured By Love
Confusion is all that we had ever known
To be honest, we never had anything
But when we were together
It felt like I had everything
You lived right down the street from me
But all you offered were excuses to me
I could feel it, that things had changed
But I still wanted to believe that I mattered anyways
You were doing your own thing
No time for me
Though I had loved you all of those
Little times in between
I used to pray
That maybe some day
We could be something more
Than just waves crashing on an abandoned shore
Just like the ocean
Receding, repeating
Had depth, yet in areas, shallow
Naive, I didn't know that love
Required balance on both ends
Unaware of the dangers in the sea
That I could love a man
But the man didn't have to
Reciprocate love to me
It used to secretly drive me crazy
All of the things I've never told you
So many things were changing in my life
When I just wanted one second to hold you
If you wanted me to forget about you
Then you should have told me to try
Because I had held on so tightly
And didn't even know why
Eventually I left what I had so desperately wanted
In pursuit to find something better
If you hadn't missed me when I was there
Why would I expect you to miss me ever
It's not worth the wait
Don't hold out your love for anyone
Who is not worth the chase
Or who won't even take the bait.
You deserve better than to be tortured by love.
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