Tonight, I Cried
Tonight I cried.
My mind wandered, it floated away from me.
Unable to sleep, I went searching for things not meant to be seen.
As my eyes danced across words, a pretty painted picture,
My heart was torn into little pretty pieces.
Words that described a love so great,
Words that were written by such a hopeful heart...
Words painted for someone else,
Words painted for her.
Time has passed by so quickly since,
Much has taken place to have those words replaced.
Tonight my mind wandered, it floated away from me.
Unable to sleep, I went searching for things not meant to be seen.
Memories flood back in from where I was before,
The good, the bad, the great, the ugly,
All pooling around me, on the floor.
So much pain and darkness,
Replaced with joy and sunshine...
But when would he ever be, just first mine?
When his name is at my lips,
I don't want to think of the heartache thats led him here...
The arms that may or may not have held him before...
But to think of him as a whole, and not fragments of a soul.
Tonight I cried.
Because my heart is sad, and it's still not whole.
There's the saddness brought with not knowing if I bring him that much joy,
There's the brokeness of never feeling perfect enough or good enough,
No matter what he says.
There's the dread of not being able to say for certain
That he's happy enough to stay.
Feeling overwhelmed with a heavy heart,
But a heart full of love.
So many burdens and yet so much care,
How does such a fragile little thing,
Have so much it can stand to bare?
Tonight, I cried.
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