This Isnt Who I Was
If i fell apart, would i really die
If you found out i got hurt, would you even cry
Why am i alive, i wish that i could die,
The horrid pain of death, needles in my spine
This death that i speak of, i think i’ll call it life
My chest is so heavy, it’s become hard to smile
Could i wish for anything, i’d wish away the pain
There’s not much i can say, that will not leave a stain
My mind is an enigma, the void is getting bigger
I’d rather be the figure, that wasn’t in the picture.
We spend hours on the net, searching for what we cannot get,
The quotes and the sayings to let out what’s inside our heads.
But time and time again.
I seem to get lost for words
My ladder has been broken
Back to this world of hurt.
I really want to try, but what if it’s all a lie
Is loving you, as i do, really worth my time
All the other people, closer than i am
Ask yourself, do they, love you like i can
I could stop it if i wanted, but the fact is i don’t
I would tell you that i love you, but i'm afraid you wont
I have time, too much, my life’s become a drag
You said my life is care-free; my emotions are just a rag
To be thrown around, used to cleanse, touched by unclean hands
And the one that has to wash it, wishes that they didn’t
If that person is you, i’d rather just stay hidden.
You said i am your love, have faith, you are mine
But why wont you tell me, are your worries the same as mine
In the place that we are in, all we have is time
But when we meet, we pass, not even a sign
All of this though you are on my mind
I wish that this would change, i want to be with you for life
And one day, just maybe, i can call you my wife
We can tell tales of today, our confusion and our strife.
Would you take me over him, or should i take the knife.
But the old me is not dead, just in a coma
Come closer, wake him up with your aroma
Embrace him in your suppleness, its about our only wish
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