The Soul That's Still Alive In Me
My mom is dying
And me in front of her
I sit and cry
The tears of endless pain..
My mom is dying
And me fondling her hair
with love,
whispering to her ears
that everything
is going to be fine,
although I know it’s not..
my mom is dying
and me standing out there
under the violent rain
blaming God for
taking her away from me..
my mom is dying
and me contemplating
the pain that’s surrounding
her heart..
my mom is dying
and me hearing her
utter to
god to keep me safe
and take her away soon..
my mom is dying
and me watching
the tears of sadness
sinking in her lifeless eyes..
my mom is dying
and me listening to her
uttering to me her words:
“ don’t live your life miserable
When am gone,
Don’t leave the pain
Kill my heart up there
When I watch you cry,
Live my life.
Live my life and keep going,
Erase your past
And write your future.
I’ll be taken away from this world
But not from your heart,
Not from your soul.
I love you my daughter,
I love you..”
Sitting by the window
Watching the ray of thunder
Hit the ground..
Sitting by the window
Listening to the drops of rain
Fall..
Sitting by the window
Contemplating the darkness
Of the dark..
Sitting by the window
Crying
Crying
Crying..
Im lost
And nobody can hear
my silent scream..
im lost
and nobody can see
my painful tears..
im lost
im lost
im lost..
I got her the chocolate
She always loved
I got her the rose
She used to be
And put them by her grave..
Sitting by he grave
Talking to her
with constant tears..
sitting by her grave
whispering to her
my thoughts..
As a fish needs the sea
To stay alive,
I need her with me to live
As a baby needs his mother’s love
To feel safe,
I need her with me to live
As we all need happiness
To keep walking,
I need her with me to live,
I need her with me
To keep my heart going on..
Sitting by the window again
Listening to the silence
of the dark..
sitting by the window again
contemplating
our happy memories..
sitting by the window again
asking god
to have mercy on her soul
and promising my mom
to make her always proud..
as I fall into my deep sleep
I utter my last words:
“ I love you mom.”
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