She's affraid She's hurt As her pain eats away at her soul The secret she must keep alone she stands No alone she lies sinking only deeper they say they know her they say they understand yet she alone knows they dont they dont endure what she endures they dont feel as she feels they dont suffer as she suffers and she smiles hides her tears hides her cries hiddes her life beneath the impenetrable shell she has created naked and bare beneath yet never does she allow anyone to see her face to touch it to smell it if only they knew she thinks every hour minute second but they wont never will they know purging her mind from all the demons that remained in her head they wont and once again she will strip to her naked limbs Alone and let those few moments haunt her to feel as if she were taking a chance the thrill has always been breath taking quick and painless body shaking world spinning a high of freedom Then reality hits and everything drops back down like a rock a pebble solid and hard unlike the wings that lifted her liquified at that one moment and she returns same as she always was hidden in her bullet proof shell a glimpse at heaven while she lies in perfect hell