The Letter I Cannot Write
In your arms you held me
With comfort and love to spare
Yet you left me early
To leave me in a heap and die
You are the rain I suffer with
Yet you make my harvest bloom
You are the volcano that tears through the mountains
Yet gives hope to a new start in life
My heart pours open for you
Like a 9000 foot dam
Crashing to the floor
Yet you cannot hear my silent echoes of pain
When you escape from my hold
You flood my world like the devils tsunami
Yet you make my river, valleys and sea
You are my poison leaking into my veins
To kill my heart, spirit and my soul
Yet you are the one who gives me drains, to escape the flood
You’re the letter I cannot write
And the heart I must keep well locked up
I hate the feeling of love and pain
Like the dagger you placed in my heart
You’re in my mind, wherever you are
I can love and hate the same
Because I hate you for making me in love
It would not be so bad if you were a distant
Yet somehow you are always here
You held me in your arms
And clasped me by the throat
I was in pain, yet could not seem to leave
You are the one who I love most
And could not leave until I must give in
I thought it was for the best
Yet I suffered yet more pain
Now I think back
I would do anything
For one last clasp again
I cling to you and you to me
Like at that party in his chair
I hugged you and you hugged me
And I long for that moment ever spare
I told you stuff, I never could tell
Only you would understand
Then you left me and I knew
I would never have that hug again
You leave me lonely, cold and shivering
In the rain and in the snow
I will never forgive you, for leaving me like that
Yet, I cannot say goodbye
As you have a clutch onto my heart
And you leave lonely in that chair
I miss you and write a letter of falsehood
I mean what I say but it’s not the truth
You are the letter I cannot write
I wish I could, but if you knew
The feelings, how I felt
That you are the one I love
Then you would never understand me ever again the same
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