The Journey of Moving On
i still remembered the first time i met you,
how the breeze went through my hair and made you smile.
how you said hello and it was awkward for a while.
and how we laughed and went to your car.
you drove down the hill,
with our song playing on the radio,
how you were playing it on your stereo.
how i teased you for living so old.
i still remembered your promises.
your vows, your secrets and your sacred wishes.
How you’d stay late at night and look in my eyes,
how you would smile and say you’re a lucky man.
it was 2 am.
2 am in the morning when i received your text.
it was like a letter with such length.
i read it hoping it would be romantic.
but it wasn’t. it was heartbreaking.
you broke up with me saying how you’re better of without me.
i didn’t get a good sleep.
my pillow was flooded with tears,
next to my bed was an image of both us together.
i felt my heart break,
into pieces that can’t be gathered.
it turned into ashes that doesn’t matter.
my foolish mind said what’s the point living without you?
i gave up on love after you’re off without me.
a few months went past and i was scrolling,
through social media and saw you,
gripping a girl’s waist with a smile the size of huge.
that smile you had the first day we met.
that smile you had when we went to our first date.
that smile you had when we stayed in for the night.
that smile on the picture next to my bed before you said goodbye.
i swear my soul died.
i never hated her or you.
i wished every night the best for you too.
i wish my heart was mean to make me hate you.
but i never did.
i was lost before i met someone like you.
you see,
this new guy comes to me and comforted me like how you never did.
he called me random times and reminded me “baby you got this”
he would make the effort to make me feel special.
he would do everything that you had abandoned.
i don’t care about you anymore.
my heart’s not foolish, i answer his calls.
i open up my heart and this guy fixed it.
he collected the pieces i thought no one gave shit about.
he did all that for a girl like me.
he does anything he needs to protect me.
he treats me like a princess when i don’t deserve it.
he is the man you could have been
i am better off without you, too.
i am way happier without you, too.
something very special was taken away from me.
and something i had never expect was given to me.
love is a never ending story.
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