Love Poem: The Jaywalker
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Written by: Bernard Chan

The Jaywalker

The city has evacuated the streets at this hour,
and vacancy has given his unsteady feet 
right of way at every intersection. 
The traffic lights, sticklers for rules, continue 
color-coding priorities for non-existent movements,  
frowning on his jaywalking but indifferent 
to his zigzagging.  

The bar has dispensed all its sympathy for one night,
so the flood of misery has now been diverted  
by closing time into the open,
private grief on public display on an empty street,
the whiskey in his stomach threatening an uprising,
pushing his upper body and legs in two different directions 
but doing nothing to blot out the 
full-screen news ticker rolling across his  
consciousness for the first time 
with a single breaking story:
SHE LEFT ME FOR ANOTHER MAN SHE LEFT ME FOR ANOTHER MAN 
SHE LEFT ME FOR ANOTHER MAN . . . 

He’s reeling from the hollowness that still seems 
to be expanding in him,    
feeling singled out for suffering,
not yet knowing that he’s merely 
following in the footsteps of countless others 
who have lurched and stumbled in the same way to 
a semblance of emotional balance,
the pain inoculating him against future pain.    

Through all the green and amber and red lights 
he staggers on towards the limits of innocence, 
until the night furls its shadows,
and the sky is a furtive grey.