Love Poem: The Disappointing Dream Man
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Written by: Nicole Jooste

The Disappointing Dream Man

I come into existence
With memories of you
As I un-exist to become a time of rest
I lapse to forget your warmth too

I favour pleasant midnight
With the sugar-sweet night scent
I’m so unhappy I breathe uneasy 
So I search for a vent

You’re my quest
Immovable love that must be found
Illusion of love is not enough
By your unknown love I am bound

I have not yet met you
Because you exist in my dreams
Immune to existence
Or only mine it seems

I require your presence
As an escape from reality
You’re my only vent
Only you can free me

So to discover you one more time
I need to seize un-existence
I need to inhale sweet night ecstasy
And forget your previous resistance

It’s hard to sleep
When all I think of is love
So the doorbell awakes me
With the sound of a dove

I close my eyes 
And count to seven
Un-imaginable belief
I’m going to heaven

I’m walking with the King
But unsure of his arrival
Disappointed, I asked him why he’d come
Hoping for longer survival

He thanked me for my prayers  
And told me not to be sad
That I shouldn’t worry
His love I always had

My search for a distant dream was my end
Even though I’d found love for which I’d begged 
I thought it would be in realities bend
This ecstasy caused my unsatisfied death