Love Poem: That Blessed Door

That Blessed Door

That Blessed Door

O the rain...the rain...the falling rain 
that fell and fell and fell again 
keeping you from my door...O my door...that blessed door! 

O the sunset...the sunset...the carnelian sunsets
how I long to hold them in my hand...so when you are blue...so blue
so deep dark blue...you can come to me 
and I will open my hand so 
you can wonder...O the wonder...wide open wonder
Xanthus yellows and amber golds streaming 
from my palm...my palm...my humble palm 
and so you will become immortal 
O if only I could keep you there
...you...only you swathed in light and warmth
safe...and sound...close to me forever
You who I am lost to...the vessel-ed seas

O how I long for the sea...O the sea...the sparkling sea
in its emerald greens and topaz hues 
it's passions, powers …a relentless muse
I long to place it in my heart...
my heart...O my a thousand times broken heart
so the pieces can wash away and I can float free 
into the wind...O the wind...the wetted whipping winds that billow the sheets hung in my yard 
whispering wild and wondrous things to dreaded demons 
washing them away with the rain
...the rain...the falling rain that fell and fell and fell again 
keeping you from my door...O my door...that blessed door that opened 
to your face -one cold crisp morn...
So blessed by God ...O My God...My Gorgeous God! 
if only I could hold you in my soul…O my soul …my sodden soul
that I would not get so often lost in my shadows ...O the shadows
my small and tall...wide and slanting shadows and the darkness
...O the darkness...the black coal darkness 
that chases me down alleyways of night and telling taunt me under the slivered moon...
O the moon...my beautiful mindful midnight moon...my crescent and my full moon
O my love ...my love....my eternal love 
if only I could sprinkle you like confetti...upon the earth 
and every life
O life...the very thing life...the breathe that enters that which wasn't and so then is till cradled in death
Death....O death...O damned-able death!
if only you were not so draped in confession that I must pray
I pray...O how I pray that the vastness...the vastness...the great and cosmic-ian vastness beyond is more splendid still than Earth...
Our Earth...our blessed wondrous Earth
perfect hungry sad beaten tarnished dirtied Earth...O MY EARTH
...how I love you!