Love Poem: Thana

Thana

Thana 


“Do not be afraid you don’t know what storm I’ve asked her to walk through”- God

She was in a bad state of mind 

Not realizing she was affecting mine

My eyes pressed tightly together 

While she reaches for anything she can find

Every beating remain as memories

That affected my life daily


I wish I can say I could look up to you 

I wish you looked me in the eye and said I love you too

But I’m just a disappointment, so you beat me

You’ll tell me to close my mouth and watch me as bruises form on my body


All I asked was for attention but only received rejection

We remained so distant that there was really no connection

Feeling like a lost child with nobody to love

I had no Guidance 

My fears hidden behind my silence


You weren’t a mother so I had to rename you

So I called you Thana which means death

And at one point I wished that upon you

Because of you, every night I have nightmares

But I was afraid to speak so everyone was unaware


But now I found my voice

I  finally decided to make a choice

Not to follow your habits

But to follow my dreams and use my own talents


Its funny how everyone thinks you’re so sweet

But each night you remind me of how my dad left me

Thana, I will always remember what you taught me

To be better than you

And to fight for me