Love Poem: Tailspin
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Written by: Tammy Ol

Tailspin

I was sent in a flutter
With the news you had uttered 
An unexpected shock that caught me off guard 

Like a solid sucker punch
Straight and square into my guts
The breath froze inside of my lungs with its force

I was too stunned to know what to say 
We have heart-to-heart talks nearly everyday
Was there some sort of turn of events that I missed?

Loaded feelings erupted and began spinning
Negative thoughts started winning
My heart pounded into a tailspin flying right out of my chest

Was this about me or about us?
This wasn't something that we discussed!
My first thoughts came rushing forth to the rescue

Torrential tears steadily flowing 
Insecurities and fears growing
With my hearstrings clutched tight, I held my tongue

What happened to the healing of that inner child?
The one whose mother's-like love he longed to find? Needed time to mend and sort out his ordeal?

Not to give up on love, was my advice for you
Now, I wonder, should those words I could chew? 
It's so hard to let go when all you want to do is hold on

Time is needed to really think this through
Listening is key to hearing what intuition is telling you
And when you jump the gun, it always guarantees a false start

July 19, 2020