Surreal Or Not
Often do I wonder what our life would be like now,
Had I but the courage to stay with you, somehow.
No gold mined could ere replace,
The love that I'd found in your sweet embrace.
Yes, I think of it now but to no avail,
How cold it has left me as I oft turn pale.
Oh, I wanted it all for us I told myself,
As I pushed our love to the back of the shelf.
You told me not to leave you there,
But fool that I was, I did not hear.
A selfish being I have always been,
This is the greatest of my sins.
To have given up a prize I should have known,
Far greater than the one that I was shown.
Since I made that terrible choice,
There have been days when I hear your voice.
You went away in the pain I inflicted on you,
My foolish chase came at a cost to me too.
So in this dark night through my tears,
I beg your forgiveness for all of these years.
You had a child that was not mine,
As you needed a love more gentle and kind.
A love I once had...lost...and then tried to save,
But I'll take only the memories when I go to my grave.
Memories of two once loving hearts,
That through my greed I had torn apart.
What will I say to my Maker about my choice?
I know not...even if I can find a voice.
Just SURREAL!
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