Spinning
I am her best friend
they are just the others
We do everything together
almost to the point of lovers
I know I love her with all my heart
but I wonder if she's equipped
to handle the lethal needles that I can throw
She's doesn't fully understand me.
and though she'd like to pretend she does
There is a part of me that existed
before we ever became the two digits
that hasn't healed no matter how she tries
I have scars deeper than gun shot wounds
and they never go away
Not even with cosmetic surgery.
I've been compromised
By countless friends who do nothing
but pretend they know me.
Than stab me in the front
Pain is universal
So I hope she understands
when my heart needs to be put on a curfew
because if it didn't it would just let anyone in
and the pain I've felt before is inexplicable
I fear losing the best thing I've ever known
She's is the only thing currently keeping me
from reaching critical.
When I get silent. It's cause I'm worried.
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