Shays Poem
I thought of you last night
i was sitting out in the cold air
reminiscing about our first dare
Chris Brown take you down i think was the song
Up on the phone talking junk for GOD knows how long
I dont think i every told you this
but your sweet soft voice i always found to be bliss
From your heart warming laugh to the soothing sound of you breathing as you lay there
sleeping
Forgive me if i become to deep
but the mere essence of your heartbeat pumping blood through your beautiful body allowing
your lungs to contract and expand allowing you to breathe
always kept me up longing to be near you
to hold, to touch, to love...with every inch of my mind, body, and soul
promising to never let you go...
sad to say that was only a thought far from reality
because in actuality
you longed to be close to me
and all i did was let you down repeatedly
when subconsciously my feelings for you were deeper than i could have possibly ever
imagined
knocked out in a dead sleep deaf to the world or at least trying to be
waking up in the middle of the night just for you
even after ignoring the long distance calls from south germany
from when you thought you saw monkeys to the times you just couldnt sleep
your voice never failed to make me smile
i fell in love with you a long time ago
i just didnt know
i guess thats why i can never let you go
at least not in a literal sense
i really dont like feeling like this
but what can i do
scared of the answer i reframe from asking
convincing myself its for the best
ill give it a rest...
I love you always and forever
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