Shattered Heart Pt 4
Late at night I sit and try to write
But its hard to clear my mind when your on my every last thought
No matter where I go
No matter what I do
My thinking always comes back to you
And here I thought I was through
I guess I never really knew how much I loved you
Because you were my everything
The air I breathe
The soul in me
My sense of being free
I swear to God it was like I could anything
I couldn’t do wrong but now that your gone
I don’t know why my heart wont let me move on
Its been a couple years since we shared a kiss
How did my life come to this
I’m a mess
I’m a wreck
I’m never happy I just walk around upset
Thinking I could been a better man
You could have been my wife
I wanted to be your husband
But all of a sudden it came to a crashing end
And no matter how many women I bring home
Laying next to them I still feel all alone
Because they don’t have what you had
That’s my heart
I sometimes wish we never broke apart
But then I remember I’m the one to blame
You know what I mean
That talk we had and I didn’t answer right back
For sure I could see that was the beginning of the end for you and me
And after no longer being ‘we’ I heard some things
And those things did hurt
Its those things that turned me into a jerk
So painful I don’t even repeat the words
I just hold onto the good times
Because those were the times you were truly mine lost each others eyes
I promise you’re the last woman to make me cry
Because to have something now like we had just for me to somehow **** up again
And another good thing comes to an end
I don’t think I could handle that again
……I rather just have meaningless one night stands.
AUG ‘12
B.K.M.jr
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