Self Love, If Only
I wish I knew you when I was young
Self love, why did you fail to show up
When I needed you most?
Don't you know how painful
Can hate laden arrows feel
Don't you know of the humiliation
Of putting those who never valued, first,
Only to realize that their sole aim
Was to shatter me to pieces
So that they do shine forth
While, I, taking myself to be
A mere lump made of dried mud,
Hid and cowered in places where darkness
Refused to peek?
Self love, with you, I would have learnt confidence
Probably, even how to give love
But since you were not there
I grew up with a piece missing
And that is, the bright side of myself!
Now, I am in a rehabilitation process
One in which I am learning to love myself
To forgive myself, to lick at my own fur
So that, like those raging lionesses,
My roar does make my enemies cower!
Self love, you were not there
And I never knew happiness
All I ever did was try to please others
By pushing their boulders up the steeps
All I ever did was to try to adjust to society
By being the rose in its jar
When I am in fact, the silvery flower from the moon
Meant not to be revealed to anyone
Except to those having, like me,
A pure heart and an awakened mind!
Self love, during my youth
I was the butterfly
Who believed it was a moth
Never did I perceive my own essence
Never did I give anyone a chance at it either
Self love, without you, life was harsh
So much that I always felt I was swimming in seas
Infested with sharks and crocodiles
So much that I always felt I had to keep afloat
When the waves raged
So much that I always felt I had to keep smiling
Even if I knew, in the very end, I would drown!
Self love, without you, I have learnt to be strong
And brave
My strength has pushed me, though,
On the path where you reside,
And now, I am learning to know you
And to live with you
As if, I was still young!
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