Love Poem: Searching

Searching

Searching the earth in pursuit of something that I cannot find 
It makes it difficult to get my desires when I am hence purblind.
I recently met a gallant, intelligent, gentle, loving man; 
with so many issues I can never understand.  
What are his reasons, his motives, I do not know. 
So many doubts, so many questions, I will have to take it slow.
But I am getting older and do not have all the time as before.
So here I sit with questions, doubts and fears galore.
He tells me I'm beautiful and sexy and in his arms I feel all aglow.
I would like to give completely, but how can I share with a man I hardly know.
 So many moments, so many stories, it is all so surreal.
He has too many layers that I will need to peel.
How can I know what his true intentions are.
Sometimes his words can be hard to take in and quite bizarre. 
Is he ready for a person such as me; am I ready for a person such as he?  
I feel sad when he is not with me, and then I feel unsteady when he is;  
this makes me into a volatile, capricious, unpredictable little Miss.
But the uncertainties of the situation make my thoughts run extreme.
So many doubts, so many fears I cannot take another hit to my self esteem
So, as I sit here pondering and wondering where this may go.   
Should I take the chance and make this kind, gentle, loving man my beau?