Running From Rain But Sitting In a Tub
"RUNNING FROM RAIN BUT SITTING IN A TUB"
she said she loved me
and asked me to be patient.
today was the first day in
two years I deliberately
didn't message her to show
her I have patience.
to know you are hated with a
passion greater than a
thousand suns is to know the
full reality of a woman back
into her city.
I almost took a knife to my
fingers.
I wrote messages, erased
them, wrote new messages and
erased those too.
you never learn the power of
SEND until you can't push it
anymore.
she's on my mind every minute
of the day and in that image
I see her laughing next to
me.
I crossed her mind once and
in that image I disappeared.
who am I kidding though?
there wasn't a time I was on
her mind today.
she took everything away from
me and for someone who is in
love it's a torment unlike
any other.
your slow murder is going as
planned but please, make it
happen while I sleep instead
of while I live.
she said she loved me and
asked me to be patient.
the last message I wrote to
her, I told her I loved her.
the last message she wrote to
me, she told me she loved me.
I’m living off that for now.
she knows my schedule and the
thought of her showing up for
the night keeps a light on.
today was the first day in
two years I deliberately
didn't message her to show
her I have patience.
it didn’t feel right but I
know it made her happy.
today, I learned self-control
by a lake watching ducks
swim.
I hope she knows what she's
doing.
By: Chicano Eddie
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