I trusted her. I went against everything I’ve believed in my whole life. I let her in and she robbed me blind. I want to feel some kind of anger towards her but all I feel is loss. She was there for me at my lowest, helped me climb out of the pit of despair I’d fallen into. Without her I would’ve fallen prey to the demons that torment my mind. I can’t blame her for leaving and that cuts straight through me. Cuts straight through the walls I thought I’d built. Cuts straight to my heart and melts the ice that has surrounded my heart for as long as I can remember. I took her for granted, I never thought she’d actually leave me but I was wrong. That thought alone almost breaks me, I was wrong.