When I knew it all I learned how to lose A smile shines through the sickly pallor Of knowing whats to come Lucid as life can be And here behind the concrete A smoke away from steady And a million miles from home I remember a better man Who lived better days And can only wonder whats changed In my short time These tired eyes Have seen enough from the end of a gun But with the grace of an autumn leaf Giving in to the breeze I'll accept when it my time to go But I pray and hope and wish for a dream From the sleep that used to come easy And if this gentle rain could wash away The time that seems to drag Then I could be back With a steady hand And be the man that she deserves Back to the dirty handle On a broken door To a house I would rather see burn But here I am, and there she is