Love Poem: Racing Thoughts - All For Naught
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Racing Thoughts - All For Naught

My mind is as hollow as the dead of night
My spirit is dancing out of cheer and fright 
My soul is shattering because I’m too late
To talk about what’s on my mind these days– 
In love with your love, demolishing the hate

My mind is like an orchestra of joyous instruments
My spirit is like the sad cries of the infinity infants
My heart is as majestic and prevailing as lightning
And you don’t hear a single thing these days– 
In dire need of your trust in me to make things exciting

The holes in my robust heart are disappearing sooner than you think
You touched me in ways I can’t explain – I can be your sympathetic sink,
Engrossed in all of your tears of sadness, madness and gladness
Make sure to hold on to His rope of hope, for you’re quite a mess

Speaking words without a mouth and hearing words without ears
Smelling scents without a nose and touching without any fingers
My eyes have fooled me for many years…I wish I can be me a long time ago…Hanging around with my one and only jubilant peer
The funny thing is…the nightmares in my mind’s eye still lingers
In the chords of corruption – sick of everyone’s assumptions…roaming in my numb cranium like sheepish deer in a herd of epic fear

Kiss the sundrenched abyss and let go of all of your silly worries
Embrace the unknown and the mysteries behind the ancient breeze – building up my self-esteem
I don’t want to die young tonight – I want to live my own happily ever after
I want to seek first the Kingdom of Light – the past scars will illuminate into stars–
I catch a glimpse at the crease of your beam, shining agleam as if it’s a glorious dream within a dream

My hurricane might whirls inside my authentic willpower…
I hope with a wishing mindset that my words don’t taste sour
My dainty delight devours at the negativity that I feel all around me
I feel extremely naïve for falling for your clever tricks and wicked plans
That led me to mere insanity– 
Don’t know why you do this to me, you see? 

Drifting away from what’s left of me and what I have become
I had enough of your mindless talk and actions…does it fulfill your satisfaction to the brim?
I won’t blow up though – I will just let it slide and feel numb
I haven’t went through that many difficult tribulations like some unlucky individuals out there
And, honestly, I don’t know what you’ve been through all the way…I wish I knew him…
I didn’t know your candlelit mind is dim…dread is piling in your head and it’s looking grim

Where has the old you gone? 
Maybe I should just move on
When will you be done with your fun and games?
I’d like to thank you for taming my fury flames…

I keep the anxiety on a low, yet the sorrow won’t leave me be
But, I really can’t stress this enough, man – 
Keep your hands to yourself and set me free from your captivity 
I am heating up like the bottom of a pan

Why can’t I fit in my own shoes? 
Don’t feed me their ruthless news 
Don’t throw up your bipolar blues
You are my destiny and far more superb than fame and fortune – ignore the crowds of oohs and boos

I held my head up high above the surface of your lies and flew like a bird
Streams of sweat strike my forehead and temples…I wipe it off in despair and regret
Why do you act up so much? Do you fear that your cries won’t be heard?