Love Poem: Pretense Lover
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Written by: Michael Madukairo

Pretense Lover

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Pretense Lover

Why do you choose to pretend about your feelings?
and you act as if you have no feelings for your beloved
whereas shyness is killing you softly and slowly
and you are dying silently in envious for him 
as you suppress your thoughts about her
without eventually revealing them to her 

yet you pretend as if you don’t have heart….
but you know you are imprisoned...
a prisoner of your conscience...crying for help
carrying your shoulder up will not heal you 
from your dis-ease of shyness...nervousness

when you brag about what you didn't feel
Will that do you good?
Why do you pretend about your desires?
As if those who desire to be loved and cherished 
are corrupted...and you see yourself as the saint
i know you genuinely desire such act-of-love
but do not know how to go about it

then stop pretending and learn the ways of love
you are not the greatest sinner when you disclose your thoughts
Didn’t you see that what you deny is been revealed
In ways you could not imagine…..
In your attitude, defensively and deafening
In your words, abusing and criticizing
In your thoughts, jealousy and malice
In your action, eye-service and head-service

How long will you carry on to repress the way you feel...
About others and about yourself without any change
do you know you can't turn back the hands of time
when the opportunity is there for you to love...
to express your lovely and thoughtful feelings
to the person you love

but you resented and tuned to criticism
criticizng others who share their heart-felts with you
condeming others art-of-love and openness
yet by the corner your heart bleeds
regreting why you are filled in pretense
without the experience of the love you truly desire in others
since, the love you refuse to share with others
is the love other refuse to share with you
 
How long can you go without sharing your heart?
for how long will you keep those burdens alive
how long will you deny your pains of not being loved
when will you make an attempt to love...to love
someone special to you apart from your blood ties
to share your fears and feelings with me...

or share your thoughts with someone 
you respect and adore passionately
With someone you want to live with forever
How long will you bear the burden-of-a-pretender?
Be real friend and befriend others and yourself as you are
How long will you carry those pains in your heart?
Think about it, if you think you can hold on
With your pretence attitude for e-t-e-r-n-i-t-y

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